|What color will my pee be today?!|
One frustrating experience from the surgery is that they refused to use my port. I still have the port in my chest just for these occasions. It's so much more comfortable for me than trying to start an IV. It's the very reason I GOT the port! But, they refused to use it and gave me a plethora of excuses as to why it wouldn't work. I could tell that my doctor thought this was ridiculous. And I knew they were just making excuses because it was too much trouble and they didn't know HOW to use it. They insisted on starting an IV in my left hand which took a lot of smacking me around trying to get my veins to show (they only smacked on my hands and arms in case you were worried) and pain while they dug around in my hand. The nurse yelled at me a couple of times to RELAX! Oh sure, it's not like you are digging around inside me with a needle right now or anything! Sheesh! They did finally get it started and it worked well, I guess. But, now, almost 2 weeks later, I'm still having pain in that arm. Quite a bit of pain. I don't have full use of my arm yet. I used a heating pad on it for a couple of days after surgery and that did help - but it's still very painful. Really frustrating. I would think that they would have enough cancer patients in there for surgery that it would make sense for them to train someone and have the equipment to use ports.
Emotionally, I'm doing okay. It's not like there's any reason to dwell on it now. It's over with. I feel relieved in a lot of ways but I still feel pangs of sadness when I see a baby.
This is my last surgery for a while. I feel like I can maybe try to live normal life again. I know I have breast reconstruction in my future (should I still choose to do that) but I don't feel like I'm in any particular rush to have that done. I can choose when.
I'm supposed to "take it easy" for another month. It's hard. I'm feeling really good and that's definitely a problem! I have to REMEMBER to be good and to stay down and to ignore that the kitchen needs to be cleaned and the house needs to be vacuumed! Ignore! IGNORE!
Just vacuuming a little couldn't hurt....just a teeny bit...just the whole downstairs....I won't tell if you don't!