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Anyway, he's gone and I was assigned to a new doctor. His nurse is a lot of fun even if she did call me onery. I can't imagine what I did to deserve that. The new doctor seems really nice and funny. He was very patient and explained things really well. We spent a long time talking about the benefits (or not) of having a hysterectomy. It's a tough choice to make regardless.
One of the benefits, however, that he explained is that if I were for sure in menopause, I would be given a different more effective cancer drug after chemo is over. Currently, I would be put on a drug called Tamoxifen which is used for pre-menopausal women. This is something I would take for 5 years to prevent the spread of the cancer. The percentages are good with this medication but the medication I would be on were I in menopause is BETTER. That's certainly something to consider.
There are more reasons that I should seriously consider a hysterectomy. Since I have breast cancer, I'm now at a higher risk for ovarian cancer. Ovarian cancer is very hard to detect before Stage III so that's scary. Also, with the syndrome they suspect I have (Cowden's), I'm at a higher risk for uterine cancer. For as long as I do have my "lady parts," I would need to have something called a "uterine scrape" each year to check for uterine cancer. Well, let me tell you, I don't want anything to do with anything called a "SCRAPE!!"
I'm finished having children (sadly) so it's not like I'm really USING those parts anymore. There are, of course, birth control benefits to having a hysterectomy, that's for sure. (Woot!) But, it's still, regardless, a hard thing to face. It means FOR SURE that there are no more babies in my future and that's sad.
It's not that I WANT anymore babies (and I was told that, for my health, I should NOT get pregnant again), I don't really. I'm old now and I value sleep more than cute babies. But, it's just so final. So...no going back! No more cute kids that look like me and are geniuses like me (I may have embellished that part a bit).
Besides that, having a hysterectomy puts me into instant menopause. Well, that doesn't sound fun at all. The chemo was supposed to throw me into menopause (and still may) but it hasn't happened that way - my body has other ideas and, apparently, likes to keep me guessing. It's super "fun." I'm not sure, though, if I'm ready to be menopausal. That just seems so OLD - so grandmotherly.
I think, though, that it would be in my best interest to have it done. Sometimes peace of mind is worth it. Plus, I'll do anything to avoid something called a "uterine scrape!" Eek!!