Even I think I'm looking pretty good considering I have breast cancer and am in chemo. Which makes me wonder what someone with cancer is supposed to look like?
I don't know that I had any expectations, necessarily, of how I'd look but I guess I just thought I'd look "sicker." But I don't know, exactly, what "sicker" looks like. I still have all my hair (which, at this point is just getting ridiculous!), my complexion looks great, my skin looks great, my hair is shiny - I don't look sick!
I think of that movie a lot these days. I even put it on my Netflix list to rewatch. Is this what cancer usually looks like? Is this what cancer used to look like? Has medicine evolved enough that now people with cancer don't look sick? I have a friend in chemo for colon cancer (shout-out to Beth - Woot!) and she looks amazing! I've seen pictures of her and no one would ever know she's sick. No one would know that I'm sick.
And, in a way, I think that's sad. Because perhaps if those of us with cancer looked sick, the world would treat us differently? Better? But, on the other hand, I don't need strangers knowing my business - so maybe it's good that we don't look sick!? I'm not sure.
|Maple Bar with Bacon - YUM!|
As I got in my car scowling and praying for Karma to give her a swift kick - I wondered if she would have treated me differently if she knew. If that woman had known what I've gone through the last few months, would that have given her pause to, perhaps, hold the door for me? To treat a fellow human more kindly? Maybe not...
But, sometimes I think the world is harsh enough and, maybe, if people knew what I've been through...what my friend Beth has been through...what thousands of other cancer patients have been through...maybe...people would be just a little kinder to each other.
Sometimes a person's struggles in life are obvious - but sometimes they aren't. And maybe that should give us all pause to be just a bit kinder to each other because you never know what that person is going through. Which in turn made me look at the woman with her young children and try not to judge her too harshly - I know nothing of her daily struggles. Heck, she could be a cancer patient herself; she didn't look sick and neither do I.
But, I still wished for a little bit of Karma to teach her a lesson...I'm only human.