It's hard to see a future when you have cancer. Even harder when you get it twice in 5 months. This is why I'm struggling to make it back to the gym. Even though I really enjoy going - the benefit of going, the reason I went - was because I was getting healthier, I was making sure I was in better shape, I wanted to have a great summer of walks and hiking with the kids. And long term, I wanted to be healthier and live longer. And now I have cancer (again) and it seems so futile. I *know* it's not and I know you'll all post to me and say, "You are going to beat this!" and it's not that I think I won't...it's just that it's hard to see beyond tomorrow and next week and next month when your future seems so uncertain.
|I'll have better boobs though.|
Why her? Why me? Why anyone? No one knows. My Mom told me she saw on the news that researchers are close to a cure for AIDS - I hope a cure for cancer is next. Everyone wants a shot at their future, I know I do.
(Tomorrow I have another appointment with the surgeon to ask questions and schedule the surgery date.)
Boob Count = 53 (Only One Today)